





Connor - our only trick or treater, not really but the only person I would give candy too!
I love my kids, I do truly, unconditionally LOVE my kids!! Just have to state that before I tell this story~ will there ever be a day we can go out for a family outing and not have tears?? The day started off with errands, so Bella's nap was delayed - yes, I know this is my fault, but I do run an at-home business and I had to run errands and put money in the bank! I thought she would nap in the car - NOPE! Our errands ended early b/c Bell's crying was "too loud and Bell needed a nap." So, her 10:00 nap started at 11:15 which meant she awoke at 1:15 as I was trying to get LE to lie down. LE did not lie down, she was wide awake, so we made a 2nd trip into town to finish errands. Finish errands at 2:30 and now time for Bell's second nap and LE's first - NOPE. LE finally fell asleep 4:15, right before Ben was to get home and begin to start dressing for our night out. Bell never fell asleep. When LE finally woke up around 6:35 she was crying and did not want anything to do with putting on her Pooh costume - which she picked out- I am not torturing my kids! We finally got it on her and Bell's on too and put into the car kicking and screaming. I felt like this idiot - we are going out, we are going to have fun and you will like it or you will get a spanking - I mean I caught myself thinking this! So my question is this...Does every Mother have high hopes of how these events, these life moments are supposed to occur? Am I setting myself up every time we walk out the door? I envision so many things differently and they never turn out that way. After play date last week I decided I would never leave the house again b/c LE wanted to keep the little girl's toys and had to buckle her in in front of my friends kicking and screaming. Then pumpkin patch - crying and refusing to have anything with me or the camera, now tonight - tears once again. Maybe I am asking too much? I just want a family picture (with no red eyes) to scrap book so it looks like my kids had a fun childhood!!!!!